Why does it have to feel like that?
I know it was more than I thought,
More than I could have asked for
But now I’m in the between
And it doesn’t even feel as if it was real.
Memories come and go
When I can barely taste your kiss
Memories betray and deceive
When your hug is all I seem to miss
How silly of me to believe.
I cannot help myself,
That spark is all I have been looking for,
The fire I lack, the craziness inside
Missing you like you were mine.
Truth is having fun is addictive,
The danger, the novelty
How can I not enjoy it?
How can you not?
No doubt I have issues,
This has become so much more clear
Everything I do reminds me of it
My sick little mind and its tricks.
If I could control it,
If I could let it be free,
I would be losing a great part of me
Perhaps the part that got you there
Perhaps the part that makes me question everything.
If only…
If only I thought I could ever feel complete.
