Lui

It's been ages and it feels quite weird,
Writing in here after everything...
Not an easy task for myself,
Though I should apologise for not being useful at all
All I can think about is to reply with a smile.
I know it's not always like this, and eventhough I wish,
I'll never stop being this coldhearted and boring
It does feel good to know we can still help each other out.
I felt so weak, so silly...
I still haven't got why that happened to me...
But thanks for everything, for being here.
Sometimes, or most of the times,
It is much easier to talk to someone new
To understand we are all fucking hard to predict...
I can not omit I miss her,
Maybe this is the way it is supposed to go...
I'll let her live and live along with her when it doesn't hurt.
Everything is changing and it for sure has become ironic,
How someone saved by changing can fear it so much.
-x-