Stay

They make me think I've done so much.
They make me believe I really should trust.
But I can do nothing but repeating the same li(n)es.
Telling a story I don't know where to hide.
At least I can say they know all my flawns.
I can even bet they know things I myself don't.
If it is all about friendship as some might say,
then I hope it is all about it someday.
Hidding is no fun when no one is trying to find you.
Pretending is no good if you are the only one confused.
This awkward sadness takes my strengh away.
Wish I could find it.
Wish I could make it stay.

-x-

Needs

Need to write
pms I guess
just missing everything
my chest

Pain is not to bear
to learn it is
love is not to hurt
to teach - maybe how to bear ,it is

Need to party
because of boys for sure
missing security
my trust

Distance is not to let one down
to give time and space it is
knowledge is not to put one aside
to help one through the distance it is

Let it go I will
no need for worries, time is about to come
hate not to know
hate not to predict
hardest challenge ever
coming down on my knees

-x-