Aim for it...

This is the first day of the rest of my life.
I can not help but to feel scared,
No it is not a bad thing at all,
It shows me somehow down deep I care about my life,
This is a very good way to go.
Of course there are things that don't feel right,
And yes, there is way too much I still don't get,
I like to believe this is the way it is supposed to be,
I like to believe I'll get it eventually.
Though lately my thoughts have betrayed me,
Wondering if it would not be better to stay,
I have to keep going the way I figured,
Otherwise I'll get lost and lazy,
Too scared and freightened to do anything at all.
I want to be good at it,
Whatever it is that awaits me,
I've got to nail it,
This is not a dream anymore,
This is a goal, an objective.
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