Back to black

No shame in crying.
No shame in living.
No shame in feeling.
The thing is I need to take control,
For this is my life,
My ride, my pride.
I'll get back on my feet,
I'll get back on moving.
Moving on.
For if you are not the one,
Someone else will,
This world is full of possibilities,
Full of people just like me,
Full of people who want to try,
Full of people who know how to live.
Not survive.
It was my choice and I will live to it,
It is on my skin and I will never let it go.
There is so much to see,
So much fun out there,
Why should I ever settle for less?
Now I am back.
Back in control,
Back in the game.
If this is the way it is supposed to be,
I might as well make the best out of it.
Let's see what is coming to me,
No shame, no regrets.
I just wanna live.
-x-

Edge

It feels so close, my feet have found it
My eyes and my heart are approaching
Soon I won't be able to take it
Not like this. No more.
Only now do I understand what they go through.
Only now do I know how hard it is to let go.
It's not him. It's me. It's for me.
Everytime I put that rule aside,
Things get out of control,
My heart gets out of control.
Superego does have a reason to be
afteral.]
It sucks knowing I'll have to leave
if I want to find anything new.
Though, at least, I have good people around me,
I have this weird luck that keeps puting me back on track]
I have them and I have HIM.
I can't do it with someone as hurt as me.
-x-

Desert

Will I ever get used to it?
This feeling after every single time...
When I think you are ready for it,
When I think I've managed to crack your signs,
You disappear...
Guess I've got my very own mirage.
From up close you are all I want,
All I like to think I need.
Though as my eyes blink it all goes away
Now you are something else
Something I am not sure helps me.
I hate doubting myself,
For doubt reproduces at a pace my poor
self-esteem cannot handle,
Cannot win.
Will I ever win?
-x-