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I can't believe she's coming back.
In the past it would have messed everything up,
Though now it seems perfect,
I'll get my last days around here with her by my side,
What a better way to end this part?
She came with me in the beginning,
She'll be here to bring some closure.
A few years ago, I would be questioning myself,
Wouldn't it be better to stay now that they are all here?
Right now, however, I don't need to,
It is all very clear.
We all barely speak, and when we do it is the past,
Not the present, not the now and here.
Of course I worry about leaving her...
But she's got so much on her mind we won't even notice
As the months all go by.
I try to believe I'll be able to stick around every now and then,
If this doesn't happen I know they'll forget me and leave it behind,
I should've got used to it already.
Maybe if I believed I could do such thing...
The fact is I am running or dreaming of once again.
Right now everything is so shallow,
I just can't make any plans.
All I want is for all this to be worth the wait.
-x-

Kids

How could I not be mad at him?
I thought it was going to be as easy as the good old times...
My bad...
Now, more than ever he is showing me what a jerk he can be.
All I hear is bullshit and lies, another desperate attempt
to make things seem better,
Another desperate attempt to run from reality.
Sometimes when he is down and alone,
I feel like it could really work...
But he, more than myself, lives for the others,
Lives for what he makes of himself,
Not for what he really is...
No, I don't care anymore,
I tried once, twice, today.
I am done with all this,
After all, I am the one who is going away,
Why in heaven should I care?
In the end I would never be able to do what he did,
Forgive.
Though when this gets me, he comes and messes it all up...
Kids these days...
Maybe I really am too old for this shit...
Maybe I should let them be and just drink it all up.
And to think she worries about it.
No worries, not anymore.
I'll let their mistakes catch them up,
When they get to feel the hit,
They'll know what I mean.
-x-