Out there...

Wish I could scream, make some noise and make it go away.
Wish there was a way to make me feel right again.
I need to get back on my feet and start to work on the end.
This is the hardest part, to put myself out there,
run the fucking risks, dare.
Whenever I think I'm going back there,
I fear to get lost in nostalgia and fail on my tasks.
I cannot let it happen.
This is when things should start to get interesting.
With the few things I already know,
I think there is room for good stuff to come out.
How hard will it be to make it work? I have no idea.
There is so much uncertainty around me...
So much to do with almost no clues...
No idea how I'm getting through with it all...
All I know is I don't want to become one of them.
I want to have fun and smile.
I want the money but not the worries.
I want the love without concerns.
What I really want, is to just close my eyes and let it go.
Tomorrow is a whole new world.
-x- written on 27.2.2012