My mistake

Nobody said it was gonna be easy.
Though sometimes I trick myself into thinking it.
When the truth is it is a whole new world, and getting fucked up seems to be a part of the fun.
I wasn't sure we were going through the same things, and of course I don't know,
I cannot make things seem better when I don't know for sure if I, myself, believe in it.
I have no idea of what to do from here, but somehow, waiting for things to just fall into place, seems to be working.
I still need to do my best not to lose focus and put some effort on things.
It is not even close to being easy, when the worst thing I know how to do is believe.
I wish to tell her that this will be worth in the end.
That in a year we will look back and be sure we did the right thing.
-x- written on 5.2.2012