S.F.

Wish I could ask someone about it

Someone I did not know what answer this person would give

I mean, I do know the correct answer and as always 

it feels nearly impossible for me to do the wrong thing. 

To let this opportunity slip.

But deep down I feel like I must. At least because I need to keep my word.

I also have no idea if I would succeed in that, even if I tried.

Yeah, I also know that not trying is not the best way to confirm that.

It just sucks because as much as I think it would be amazing to do such thing,

I also know it would give my life a completely different direction,

than the one I am trying to give to it by myself.

I know most of the times we are not the ones able to change the direction of our lives.

I just wish that for once I could do that.

I don't know for how long this almost-regretful feeling will haunt me

I hope not for so long because I have other things to focus on.

It is just too much…I haven't felt so tempted for a while…

I usually say that if you think twice you shouldn't do the 'thing'.

Let my first big mistake come on to me. 

-x- 16.06.12