Choose one

Guess I'll never know why I feel the way I do.
What if I have just been choosing the same path all along,
I mean, when I stop to think about it, it all makes sense...
Since I ran away the first time I have been giving up and moving on whenever things got out of my control.
I have left my friends, my lovers, everything, in search for a new place, new lies.
Maybe this is the way I'm supposed to be.
I would never be able to have everything planned the way she does.
Neither would I put so much effort to make it happen.
I guess we do should give as much importance to things as they deserve.
And in this case I may have neglected a great part of my life,
By giving too much importance to what doesn't really matter.
I need to accept what my skin tells me.
-x- written on 29.1.2012