Not to care

This feels so right, and in these times I almost believe in her.
Believe nothing has changed, we are all still the same.
I know this does not work for too long, I am just glad we still have these moments.
The times we can just laugh around and be silly the way we want.
This is going to be so hard...
And I am doing my best not to let all these moments become my single goodbye.
I guess I can still try to live and train my mind to ignore all that's about to come.
Wish I had a clear idea of that, wish I could know it for sure.
Though I have to admit, my greatest fun is now hunting me.
For someone who loves surprises so much, it is weird to fear.
For someone who has done this before, I feel rather afraid.
It for sure is easier when one cares not.
-x-
Written on 13/03/11