Not right

I hate myself more than anything.
I hate myself for caring.
I hate myself more than anything.
I hate myself for daring.
No idea why I still do this when all the world seems careless.
No bloody idea why I still do this when I feel like you don't even exist...
This is me loosing this fucking game all over.
This is me not being able to understand why...
It would have been so much easier to just give up.
I wouldn't have to care nor think about it all.
This just hurts and no one will ever get it.
I thought you would. I thought you could be mature.
I thought I could just play along.
Though my tears are falling.
Though my heart is crying.
Though... I was just wrong.
-x-
Written on 28/05/11