Naive

Guess this is the way things are supposed to carry on.
I lost two days plus my temper, and for what?
That's when all the hate begun to flow, I should not, must not.
It is no use to think I can just start doing things differently right now.
This will just get me hurt and I do not have a great amount of time to lose.
Nothing and no one rather than myself will matter most.
It was always like this and it will until the day I get to rest.
I shall never forget about this.
This allows me to live among them.
This allows me to succeed among them.
I am still angry for letting it all fall through.
I am still angry for doing it to myself.
"But you're so naive, you're so"
-x-
Written on 31/05/11