I still...

How could you end something you've never even started?

Neither to think about, nor to write or talk…

I'm stuck at this trap with no one to help,

With no one to care…

They're all gone at this time,

I stand here alone, once again,

Alone since the beginning,

Alone until the end.

Though finishing it is nothing but necessary,

Though finishing it could save my rep.,

Could save the rest.

My bottles do not seem to be enough,

They never were,

No, I don't plan to stop. 

I start to miss him, 

Not because of my first thought,

Not because of the laughs,

Because of it,

It could indeed help…

It took the pain away,

Now the pain is killing me.

I will keep going on,

It is not as if I've got a choice,

I will keep going on,

Since I still miss something,

I still miss someone.

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