Wide Awake?

Waking up doesn't feel so good when your eyes close to this,
and open a whole new world.
If I could see this world the same way they do, there would be
no fun in closing my eyes, living those other li(v)es.
Suddenly I feel as if everything I used to think was completely mistaken.
As if I did what I've always hated to...
Talking about what you don't know,
is like driving without glasses on...
And now that I know it, I want to change sides.
I want to give up on it all.
I want to run away.
Rather, I want to fade away.
Maybe I'll settle in a couple of days, or weeks.
I need to be bored so i can finish it.
Falling asleep could really help me out.
Falling on the concrete, feeling such pain, may at least mean,
You knew how to fly.
-x- 28.06.12