Her.or.It.

After all these years. After all I've ever thought and said. After all my reckless opinions.
I find myself craving for it, waiting for him to come back so I can get some...
Not what you may think at first, though in the same sense ...
Since he is the only one who can provide me such relief...
Who'd have thought I'd be in such need for it after all these years?
This is alright in here because it is so damn far away,
But I know once I get home, I'll not be able to do so anymore...
I wouldn't be able to, I am, or will be, too close to the problem...
I don't feel like it would be safe to do it at home...
Maybe I am wrong... I sincerely hope so...
All I know is, that helps me, somehow...
That relieves me, somehow...
Somehow I don't feel so lost,
Somehow I feel like I could,
Somehow I feel like a dot,
About to drop down, and finish it all.
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