Gone?

This is it once again. I should be used to this.
I should be used to the pain.
But it is what it is, and since so much has changed,
I can say I got lucky...
It could have been much worse...
I can't seem to know or understand what lies ahead.
It's a new game, new people, new threats.
I don't feel scared, at least right now.
I am kind of relieved to leave.
Too many farewells, too many goodbyes.
Of course I may never come back.
Free to vanish, still being alive.
Well, I know it won't solve anything.
Everywhere I go there will be people, pain, prejudice.
And there is nothing I can do besides live my life.
Follow the steps they want and expect,
One at a time.
Then, run away a couple of times to find more reasons to smile.
-x-
Written on 30-09-2011