Survive

Time to start it all over...
And I don't even know where from.
There's this one little voice in the back of my head,
Saying this is way too much.
And, of course, too much for myself...
Sometimes I think it would be better for all this to end like we did.
Just keep the good memories so we can laugh at them whenever we meet.
Nothing else. This is so much easier.
I don't feel like I am capable of going any further here...
This is not the best way to carry out a life.
This is the only way I learned how to live.
I have put myself aside for so long,
It now seems impossible to go back in.
I don't think I will ever ace this task.
I don't think I will ever be able to live, the way you do.
-x-
Written on 13-07-2011