Now

The unusual
The new
May scare and confuse
It is not hard
Some may think
It could be done
If it was not about me
Most of the times it is not
Though feelings come in the way
Mess everything up
Take care of my soul
Make me want to tear apart
Perhaps it is how this is supposed to be
Better not to risk
Better not to think
Better off without it
What to do next is a question one might ask
No answers
Not here at least
My need to question
My challenge to feel
You could have broken me
You could have saved me
It was never about you in the end
And my mind keeps deceiving me
I need my thoughts
Could barely live without
I need these words
To let the darkness hang around
Time, and only time shall prove
Whether I will make it through
Wondering and wandering
For until I know where to go
Any road will be good enough.
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