Break

Sometimes your heart must stop you
From harming it once more
From leaving it destroyed
Though you may think it is ok
Your mind can only tolerate so much more pain.
For now it feels better to stop
Stop looking for something that never comes
Stop looking for different people
When they are all as hurt as you
It is not easy to give up
However, at least for now, it is the right thing to do.
I fear missing something out
I fear not taking an opportunity
But all the courage I had deep down
Has been taken, no questions asked
No excuses on the way.
If only we could see how much the future hurts
Predict and act before everything gets worse...
I know this is not how love works
I know so much about the "nots"
Perhaps someday I will know about the truth.
No, hope respawns more quickly than I thought,
It is resilient, inconsistent, sttuborn
It makes you feel as if you could...
Sadly, my knees are hurt
My legs are shaken
My eyes are lost.
I'll take a deep breath and fall asleep again
For the mornings require more energy
Than I seem to be able to save
For the nights are full of thoughts
And the thoughts full of pain.
If only we could know beforehand.
-x-