Ways

Suddenly I don't feel so lost anymore...
I know it's weird and I gave up on trying to understand.
But even now, when I seem to have found my way,
Telling the truth, talking to them,
It feels harder than it should.
This is the thing I don't seem to get...
Of course this is the first time I am living this sort of situation...
I have studied lots of things but this does not match...
I am confused and afraid to make any mistake at all.
I could blame it on her, my first shot, my single regret.
Here I'll add a new wish to my recurrent one:
If mistakes are not to be valued the most,
I do wish I could just close up my eyes
And let them find their way out.

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Written on Aug. 2nd.