She²

I have no idea how to explain what happens
She's so much like me and indeed so different
As life keeps moving on I just can't avoid thinking of it
Sometimes I think that in the end we are all the same
While most of the times I think it is just a huge coincidence
We are all here, we're all together
Though it will not always be like this
This is the only thing I hate to know beforehand
It may not for them but it will for myself
Yes it hurts when I stop to think,
and looking at her while she cries in front of me doesn't really help
She is the one with a million faces
Maybe she is not only one at all
It is up to you to think and decide
While I keep trying to change the subject
Hide.
My thoughts so cold and hurt
I get scared of hurting them as well
I get afraid of meaning anything at all
Afraid of the goodbyes I insist to think necessary
Just another excuse to run from the truth
I am not like her, I am not like you
And when you know you don't belong
You just want to be gone
I'm just not sure I can do it this time
Maybe I should show myself up and try...
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