Awareness

Is it worse not to acknowledge change? I mean, if you refuse to see, and if you do it consciously is it really a problem? My answer would certainly be no, if you are aware of the act, of the refusal, there is no problem to maintain a pattern. But if you don't acknowledge your condition, if you'd rather create something on your own, then this act would for sure not be accepted.

Just if you stop to think of it, refusing to acknowledge is pretty much what we do everyday. We may of course be aware of some of our actions but not all of them, and not because we can not, mostly because we don't want to. It is not different at all of a person refusing to see change.

And then of course I am forced to write about the concept. Change is obviously something that should never become real. Change goes strictly against routine, against what we are used to, what leaves us comfortable and allows us to predict. To come close to the future we never get to live. Well if it is never meant to happen it justifies the refusal, one can not acknowledge what was not predicted, what should not have.

If one could have one would have. This automatically destroys every thought of possibilities and kills with a single move every willing for change. What happened is what could have happened. If something did not take place at this we call reality then it doesn't exist. Then we do not acknowledge its existence.

Of course that's more a frequent thought of mine than something I'll ever be able to solve. And if I may add such thing, it is not my goal to solve anything. It is not my will to make change disappear.

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