In here

Here I am and it feels a bit weird,
Meeting him after all these years...
My past and my present seem to be testing me
Whether I'll pass it is an answer out of reach.
One thing is clear and very much simple,
It feels good around him,
It feels good to be here.
There are of course stuff I need to do,
People I need to meet,
Though time keeps running out way too fast
My hope's to figure it out before anything goes wrong.
I almost lost it a couple of days ago,
I almost gave up, almost let go.
But then I gather up the tiny guts within me,
Drink a couple of beers,
And get back on my feet.
It is not always easy and never will it be,
I am lucky to have found the right people to accompany me.
They may not be as close as I want them to,
But maybe it is better like this...
I am not that nice under a closer look.
This is what I fear the most,
What if I get too close to him and it all goes wrong?
Somehow I'm being silly again...
I can't control it,
I can't predict.
Gotta follow their advice and let it be.
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