Too close

It's a smell

It's a taste

Under my skin it shows

Hate

No. Not that.

Courage is here, not there.

Not where it should be.

Wisdom is here, just where it should be.

Power is here, and also on my mind.

My addiction,

It should never hide.

Thinking too much.

Feeling too much.

The pain always shows up.

Though I can never trust my eyesight.

Misunderstood senses,

Guess we all suffer from it…

Wish I had the answers.

Wish I could tell you.

I am doing my best to avoid the tears from falling.

There are just too many things to keep my success apart.

-x- 

Let's go

I could write nonstop…

My thoughts

My thoughts

Are killing me little by little

Too much

Too much

Them, me, everything

Wish I could jump to the end

After all this was gone

After she came here

After I went home.

But I am about to leave the place I got used to call home.

I am about to finish my break of the real life

I never liked reality that much anyway

Now it's time to return

Dive in cold waters

Step on burning coal…

I try to run from it

Using my well-known tricks

These do not work

I am lost

I'm somehow free

I feel as if I could walk anywhere

Though they would always be watching me.

-x-